65) Protesting: What’s the point? It’s just a bunch of activists getting arrested and stopping traffic or some shit, amiright?

65) Protesting: What’s the point? It’s just a bunch of activists getting arrested and stopping traffic or some shit, amiright?

I didn’t talk to a single person who wasn’t uncomfortable with, or unaware of the fact that we were inconveniencing people who were “just trying to get to work”. But, The System IS killing us. We’ve spent literally DECADES trying to – do good science — raise awareness — establish dialogue — pass laws — change lifestyles — inspire people — work with governments — etc. etc. etc. etc. And it has not worked. Things are worse in the ecology of our Collective Life Support System than ever before in the history of Homo Sapiens. Everything “normal” has been tried. A thousand times over.

It’s time to misbehave. So these are some of the people I met today who, reluctantly, joyfully, were misbehaving.

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63) Jordan Peterson, Part 5:  The Perfect House Problem; Subsection 6 -- Lived Experience

63) Jordan Peterson, Part 5: The Perfect House Problem; Subsection 6 -- Lived Experience

Perhaps then, you will start to understand ‘that look’ — that gleam that is so unsettling to the intellectual skeptic or theorist, that unwavering solidity that you see in eyes that are past fear, eyes that have seen so much pain they won’t close to ugliness ever again.  When you see the stability in people’s eyes who have witnessed sufficient suffering, you have met a person who can drink in the entire ocean, who can absorb an entire sun, because their hearts are broken into so many pieces they have atomized and become the Universe.

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50)  Dirty Feet  (TW: suicide, sexual assault)

50) Dirty Feet (TW: suicide, sexual assault)

Thinking about suicide has been my main hobby for 14 years, 7 months and 16 days.
You were right about sexual assault, especially for kids.
“It makes you see yourself as a demon.  So you check-out, dissociate, a lot of the time, because who wants to be a demon?”
I realize why I kept this fantasy alive for so long.
I believed the only worthy thing to do with my life was make sure my last act will be one of love.

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42)  Afterbirth in a field:  The answer to the question of life, the universe, and everything...

42) Afterbirth in a field: The answer to the question of life, the universe, and everything...

Soften into your true animal body and feel your rawness, your wildness, your strength and your vulnerability, your life. And your death.

If you have not done this, then you should.  I would call it as close to a moral imperative as anything Kant ever came up with. Even more important than masturbating, if you can believe that.

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41)  Jordan Peterson, Part 1, Subsection 4:  Moral Foolishness

41) Jordan Peterson, Part 1, Subsection 4: Moral Foolishness

It is very easy for a “sort yourself out” message to get co-opted by the standard individualistic identity project that most of us are already struggling with, as we try to ‘self-improve’ and get motivated and “awaken the giant within” and all that. To the extent that the psychology of motivation gets applied in ways that are unwise, that are not conducive to both individual and collective human flourishing but instead could simply be in the service of a person’s ego, the “sort yourself out” approach, can easily become a force of destruction, like a once-cozy campfire that has gotten out of control….

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40) Jordan Peterson, Part 1; Subsection 3:  Theoretical Foolishness

40) Jordan Peterson, Part 1; Subsection 3: Theoretical Foolishness

But scaffolding is far more subtle than that. It happens not only at the emotional-to-behavioural level, but right down at the millisecond level of human consciousness, the level at which our emotions are guiding our perceptions which in turn are constructing a reality in accordance with our emotions — the level of our implicit story-telling hardware (and software).

The essential, long-term reason why compassion is so important for babies, is because it helps their own neurobiology learn to regulate itself. This is the basic insight of attachment research; receiving attentive care (i.e., compassionate, loving, responsive attunement with others) allows one’s own infant, raging, chaotic neurobiology to be, in effect, soothed by the more stable, grounded, controlled, resilient, more ‘ordered’ neurobiology of the attachment-figures.

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35)  Thoughts on Three TEDx Talks

35) Thoughts on Three TEDx Talks

I was trying to take people, right there, in that moment, on a journey, to engage minds and connect with hearts, directly, from me to you, unimpeded by theory and intellectualization. Rather than aiming for a rational appeal that could be communicated discursively, I wanted to engage people in a form of honest, authentic dialogue that transcended mere spoken language but could be conveyed through music, symbolism, story and nonverbal behaviour.  So I tossed theory completely out the window and went straight for the heart through poetry, song, story, and drumming.

And it worked

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34) Less than half, and none of the important ones:  Part 4

34) Less than half, and none of the important ones: Part 4

I believe that healing starts with feeling.

Feeling the truth of your pain. Feeling the ache of loneliness that seems to open into infinite blackness in your heart. Feeling the guilt that eats away at you for the ways you know, deep down inside, that you have failed people, or yourself. Feeling your awfulness. Your grief. Your desperation. Your failures. If you don’t first stop and FEEL the soft, suffering animal that you are, then you will spend your life trying to hammer yourself into shape. This won’t make you stronger; it will just make you bruised and broken and exhausted. The “road to self-improvement” will become more like a hamster wheel, a treadmill that takes you nowhere.

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29) Hell, Part 2

29) Hell, Part 2

Hell is like a logic trap, constructed so you only have one answer, one solution. As soon as you throw Infinity into an equation, it trumps everything else. Pascal knew this; this is what his wager was all about — that faith is not based on reason. But anyway, back to Hell as an unfair logic trap:

Hell = You Have To Give Your Life To God Or You Are An Idiot.

It’s the best sales-pitch ever. Buy my product, or Burn In Hell For All Eternity.

I call bullshit.

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